Creep

Last week, my wife celebrated her 36th birthday. Some of her friends came over to our place to help her celebrate the joyous occasion.

Sitting before the dinner table, I glanced at my wife who was looking radiantly beautiful that evening. She smiled at me with those eyes that disarmed me the very first time I met her and made me fall for her.

Couldn’t look you in the eye
You’re just like an angel
Your skin makes me cry
You float like a feather
In a beautiful world

After food was served, my wife and her friends stepped outside to get some air. She was so busy attending to her guests that she hardly noticed I was left alone inside.

I’ve never been comfortable around people. I think many of them can actually sense this so they tend to leave me alone. My wife’s recent birthday celebration was no exception. Sitting beside her and her friends, I felt a strong yearning to be somewhere else.

I’m a creep
I’m a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don’t belong here

I’m not sure if this feeling is strange or if it’s a disorder that I should worry about. Still, being left alone is something I’ve learned to welcome and enjoy early in my life. Perhaps, it’s because I’m different and yet there’s always this longing to be like everyone else who have control of their lives.

I don’t care if it hurts
I wanna have control
I want a perfect body
I want a perfect soul

We all want to be special and get noticed. However, many of us still end up feeling that we’re not good enough. We still feel that we’re creeps and should be in a place where we really belong.

I wish I was special
But I’m a creep
I’m a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don’t belong here

Feeling different like me? Click “Creep” here and you might just feel a little better:

English alternative rock group Radiohead sang and recorded “Creep” in 1992 as their debut single. The song, taken from the album Pablo Honey, did not hit the music charts at the outset, but the re-released version a year later was a worldwide success.

Radiohead lead singer Thom Yorke said “Creep” referred to himself, noting that he had a problem asserting his manhood even as he was a member of a rock band. Music became his outlet and “Creep” helped him recognize who he is.

Despite the success of the song, “Creep” encountered legal problems soon after its release. Songwriters Mike Hazlewood and Albert Hammond argued that the melody of the song copied their 1972 composition “The Air That I Breathe”. The case was settled with Hammond and Hazlewood receiving royalty percentage for the sales of “Creep” as well as co-writing credits.